It’s deeply unfair but my reality that I have much longer recovery after activity that is getting worse not better. It’s also deeply unfair that makers of the technology I used, hardware and software, have failure rates that are unacceptable in any other field. Last night I had cause to look at the saved files on my laptop- and the number of corrupted files suggests there is either yet another drive failure (the laptop) or I backed up my corrupted files.

What’s really unfair is when this impacts on other people. I really didn’t expect to still be in as much pain and as fatigue as I am today. But that means I also wasn’t prepared to be time displaced this whole week. I haven’t really found a solid solution for this. Not as a physical diary. Not as alarms/alerts on my phone (none that aren’t a massive privacy risk and not just for me (a lot of apps want access to your contacts.)

I’m used to how unfair this is on me, but not for other people.

Or rather I’m used to being disappointed and accepting some limitations. But when it goes beyond me? The guilt doesn’t matter, solutions do. I’m going to test drive a physical option. Not a whole diary that would be a waste. An A5 bullet journal might work though. And I do have options there.

I don’t want sympathy, but I do want reach out to other people like me and maybe our pooled experience and solutions can be picked through for what we each need.