summer cleaning

or delayed spring cleaning, I decided that as I have too many obsessive projects on the go I needed to just tidy up my workspaces as well as get rid of projects I no longer think I can finish.

It’s very warm right now and my health has suffered so much this year that I am also taking the time to tidy other parts of my life.

So I have a lovely sipper cup to drink water from as well as green tea, staying hydrated has been a fine balancing act.

And I have also installed Mint on my netbook. It actually runs again! It was sluggish with Win10 but the anniversary edition broke it. Blue screen of death within 1/2 hour of use. Updating plugins and codecs took a while but wow. I also had to fix the wifi settings but that was a really easy fix (setting “ignore” for something I don’t think I have a choice in 🙂 Most of the suggestions included coding and just not right now. I can do it but prefer to not!)

And I’ll soon have a nifty controller! I’m getting a console for Christmas/Birthday!!! The hype is real. My hands are going to need more care than ever in the next few years so this is a big step. I can save up for extra space (SSDs only from now on, seriously) and a vertical mouse. Now those are pricey! All options for accessibility are. But this way I can save 🙂

My poor blog!

I’ve been doing things, just posting through instagram as it’s an easy app. to use on my itty bitty phone, it can cross post (can’t be crossposted to, which is annoying) so there is a fair bit of backlog!

Before I do a few updates on the state of the current projects I need to get my Elsa cape redo done. So I’ll be spending the day pressing the appliques 🙂 Also the cape fabric which is what is not so fun!

I will be at the Farmer’s Santa Parade this weekend, I wanted to go to the MoTaT time travellers event on Sat but I am in that fragile zone that makes that a bit of a difficult choice.

I can’t really risk another short prednisone bump for general health reasons but I really need it. As I was told by my rheumy to double my Arava but didn’t prescribe it I need to bring my letter to the pharmacy to get my next dose early. LFN has a long half life so it should be okay if I go in tomorrow.

But because I am not controlling the disease as effectively atm I am more likely to trip some inflammation with activity that goes beyond a limit I can’t actually find without going past it 😉

inspiration hit hard!

Over the last few days I have been quiet here as I have been a bit busy and tired in what feels like equal proportions! It’s been skewed more to tired, strangely enough. Though I have four events and two hospital daystays in the next month so yes still to being busy. All charity events btw. Tis the season!

My Elsa cape is ready to press- this time I get to avoid side seams! But it does mean being very very careful indeed with not stretching the fabric out as I press. Also it seems heat changes the blue tone and shifts it slightly to a more neutral than purple tint!

Did a display this weekend and got to see inspiration bloom in the eyes of a few people who had only really seen characters in film/tv/games and getting to be hands on with the materials was just the start of what could be a long interest.

Also spent the last two days wrapping my head around a costume that I should have seen before but this year has been very… well not much has panned out well and my goals have mostly shifted and so I’m playing catch up.

I found the maker of said costume and the final pieces of the puzzle fit so I sent a thank you email as I have not been this inspired in ages.I would say obsessed, but yeah it is really firing up some grey matter that really needed a bit of a prod! So my next year is definitely filled with projects and inspiration!

Trying to find a maker of a particular garment in a film can be a challenge. Unfortunately google is fast becoming a tool only to buy ready made gear or is flooded with pinterest links (usually not the main pin either but one of what may be hundreds of linked pins!) So it was a bit of effort. I know my own site is starting to fall again in hits from sites WP recognises so it means very soon I’ll be trying to do some rearranging of my site to make it even easier to navigate and find information. I mainly want to tweak the search php file to display full posts not previews- for some reason images don’t appear in previews which makes it less useful.

And finally I have been a bit busy trying to find quality of life options to be able to continue to use my computer and in doing so have been joining up with accessibility social networks and trying to get ideas on how to really make my site more accessible. I am not sure what the overlap is for my site, but it’s not like I’m the only person who is looking for costume information and having accessibility issues 🙂 So I may not be able to do much to the huge number of blog entries but I can try to make my thumbnails have alt text and use the footer for page lists/menus in case my menu is not easy to navigate with specialist browsers or devices.

I’ll be looking for specific requests for img alt text, and will get it checked by sites that offer to look for issues.

I do very much try to avoid having ads, or anything other than the information right there. I know some readers get stuck in certain kinds of layouts. Especially pop up ads or content off site in general.

that latest therapy

 

The media hypes up medical advances as much as anything, in fact often even more. And those of us with chronic illness are often caught between the hype and people who care about us as well as people wanting to be the first to share. It is exhausting. Because I am indeed always searching for information about therapies and I often have to divert focus from that to try to not just say that the media has hyped something beyond any real help but to also prove it. And to do that I often have to source the original papers and read very dry very long papers and hunt down reviews. None of which is all that easy to appreciate outside the field.

 

So what can you do as someone who cares? Take five minutes to do a bit of research. It’s a sign of respect to us that you will put that little bit of extra thought rather than just throwing a link at us. That’s it. Give us the same level of respect you might do when hearing the latest news about a film franchise.

PubMed is a really easy to search tool that lets you find at the very least the abstracts of a vast number of papers, it is compiled by the United States National Library of Medicine. It may not tell you about the quality of the research but it is by far a better source of information than the media. 

If you are feeling bold you can even look through the journals these papers are published to. Annals of the Rheumatic Diseases is a great source. I also am subscribed to several Nature alerts including immunology, Medicine, and genes and immunology. So I am very well covered for getting the latest news!

 

 

Regardless of the therapies we are on, please do trust that we are being proactive, that we are trying everything we have access to.

We are also the ones who have lived with our disease and our therapies, so we probably are more informed about a treatment than someone who doesn’t in fact need it.

I am proactive. But I can only be proactive so far. All the medication I have been on has had a tremendous delay between trials, approval, and my access.

 

 

Therapies pass through many levels of testing before being offered to patients. Even clinical testing trials are often limited to specific gender or a combination of age and gender. Many of us simply cannot participate in trials, and sometimes that comes down to disease that is too active to halt current therapy to trial.

 

Rituximab was trialed in the mid to late 1990s. It’s an antibody that targets a specific type of B cell that is very active in several cancers as well as several autoimmune diseases. This makes it both effective and relatively safe compared to most other treatments. It doesn’t obliterate the immune system, nor does it slow down fast replicating cells (methotrexate is used for autoimune disease as well as cancer treatments as in both cases cancer cells and immune cells include very fast self replicating cells!)

It was trialed in 2004 on Rheumatoid patients, and recommended in the USA in 2006.

My first access was in 2014.

My third yearly dose is in two weeks. Four months from this I will get my final evaluation to decide if I’m allowed this treatment again and at a therapeutic rate. This is because I have refractive disease and it pretty mush resists all treatment. But this therapy works for me, in a limited fashion and for only about 6-8 months at a time. But I have to fit a very specific criteria to still have access after this round.

Continuation – rheumatoid arthritis – re-treatment in ‘partial responders’ to rituximab – rheumatologist
Re-assessment required after 2 doses
All of the following:
1 Either:
1.1 At 4 months following the initial course of rituximab infusions the patient had between a 30% and 50% decrease in active joint count from baseline and a clinically significant response to treatment in the opinion of the physician; or
1.2 At 4 months following the second course of rituximab infusions the patient had at least a 50% decrease in active joint count from baseline and a clinically significant response to treatment in the opinion of the
physician; or
1.3 At 4 months following the third and subsequent courses of rituximab infusions, the patient demonstrates at least a continuing 30% improvement in active joint count from baseline and a clinically significant response to treatment in the opinion of the physician; and
2 Rituximab re-treatment not to be given within 6 months of the previous course of treatment; and
3 Rituximab to be used as an adjunct to MTX therapy; and
4 Maximum of two 1,000 mg infusions of rituximab given two weeks apart.

So let’s hope I meet this as imperfect a solution as it is it is the only solution right now and for the forseeable future.

I can keep an eye on trials but they all have this same delay between trials and approval and approval and acess.

 

 

 

 

Daily things I do for living with RA

I am pretty open about what conventional and alternative therapies I use and how they impact my life- sorry in repairing my blog this year I have also lost a number of tags so will go back and tag all my health posts in the near future.

But I do also make daily care decisions so thought I’d sahre some.

Shower: Regardless of the time of day this is my first real therapy. The heat from the shower is so important to me moving I cannot even begin to express how lucky I feel to have this nearly every day. We are on a low rate so we get a lot of days where our cyclinder is disconnected during peak peariods and that has a pretty profound impact on how I can manage for the day.

For my disease and how it works in me applied heat offers immediate benefit. I am not sure why, you’d think it was too similar to inflammation to work, but I suspect it opens up the tiniest blood vessels to help with circulating the build up of immune debris. Many find ice helps, and I suspect it’s because it slows down migration of immune cells into the area, so that is a really interesting contrast in physiological reactions!

My shower is the time where I can brush my teeth and wash my face very easily, and I do both towards the end of my shower- it takes a while for my hands to warm up enough to do this and yes, laws of physics apply and there is a fairly rapid cooling off of extremities once the shower is over!

But it’s also a chance for my spine and ribs to also get mobile and that helps make breathing easier.

Food: Ah. Most people offer a lot of advice on diet, for me there is no difference in my disease activity based on diet. I have no real allergies or intolerances except some annoying reactions to acidic food or sticky starches.

I have friends with both allergies and intolerances and I do not share any overlap of symptoms. I am very lucky to have lactase persistance as milk is amazing for helping with the possible/maybe Sjogrens that often accompanies RA. I can start the day with a milky drink and not you know, choke on my medication or food 😉

I do try to stick to food that has not been heavily processed. I am though very lucky to live where I do that I can have this option.

I do also try to get protein- B12 is a big issue for me it gets depleted very quickly, totally disease related as well as medication. I used to be vegetarian (zero iron or B12 issues at the time) and last year started reintroducing meat. I cannot tolerate red meat- I notice health issues fairly rapidly, so I have found a balance. I have a lot of salmon, and I occasionally have sardines. I am not sure if it is benefiting my joints but I haven’t really had an issues with iron or B12 so there is a very definite health benefit there. I try and find the options with least environmental impact and I am very lucky again that this option is there.

Ergonomic factors: I have a super lightweight mouse for my computer. It’s a cheapie and I have cleaned it out a few times but it only has an impact in terms of clicking. I have my desk as a height where I can rest my arms on it and I generally type sideways and with frequent breaks even while in the middle of a sentence. I rely on error detecting in different apps and am really happy that Chrome offers spelling options. I prefer that to auto correct so I can learn what errors I regularly do so I can try and avoid them.

I like to sit with my knees pressure free so this means I will put cushions on seats and I rarely sit on the sofa. This means I’m usually sitting upright or in bed or standing so it can be a bit of a challenge energy wise. I find myself having to switch righ on or right off. So that is an area I’d like to explore.

There are more, so I may try and think of a few.

Oh mugs! Ugh, I have a lot of trouble holding mugs so I really love my tiny little plastic tumbler that works for hot and cold drinks. On the flipside the heat from hot drinks in ceramic mugs on my fingers is wonderful!

holding pattern day

Well, sort of. I mean I had a specialist appointment today- which is pretty much treading water. Kind of, so do you want to have daily steroids again? Do you want to double your current medication? Okay do you want to go on another medication that will mean you need to see an ophthalmologist regularly?

I have been on all of these previously btw, it’s a case of now trying combinations. Yes, we have reached current range of treatments. But it could be worse. There are people in their 90s with this disease who cannot go on anything (alternative meds included) because the side effects are so much worse than the side effects of prednisone, think liver failure and very fragile skin and already slowed down immune systems. I might have kind of had a change of heart in the office over that because one day that will be me. I am making those hard calls now because one day I won’t even have a choice between a few not ideal options.

So I made a compromise- I’m not doing daily steroids, I will start doubling my daily dose of leflunamide. I’ll see what side effects I can tolerate.

I just don’t want to go back on steroids. It’s a stress on other systems than just the immune system. It’s one thing to deal with repeat infections another to deal with them and added heart and adrenal funtimes.

So.

The hydrochloroquinine does apparently have soft tissue benefits- so nodules could be lessened 🙂 I’ll see her again in four months. And if I need to

Also, Rituximab infusions are booked!! They can be done in an afternoon now- I only have a low blood pressure issue so that’s fairly easy to anticipate and correct 🙂

 

But I also am seeing the hand surgeons again. oh poop. I may have to have that changed, I think I’m booked in on the same day as one of my infusions. I will call.

Serious health post

I realise that I write about my health a lot, but my disease has such a misleading name, and has caused confusion for patients with RA and with OA that I think I need to try and clarify just why I am on drugs used in Chemotherapy and to treat disease people think of as totally unrelated. Other inflammatory diseases that cause joint inflammation as a symptom are also covered by Rheumatologists so it can be very confusing, and very worrying to patients who do not have these diseases t be treated by the same specialist!

I have Rheumatoid Disease. My disease is a systemic one, all starting with  my immune system being derailed and turned against a tissue that is very common in the body: synovium. This not just in the joint spaces but around tendons.But it also can be active in other tissues.

Most of these are a direct result of the one disease process, so they all respond to a greater or lesser degree with the Disease Modifying drugs used to control inflammatory diseases.

http://www.arthritis.org/about-arthritis/types/rheumatoid-arthritis/articles/rhemuatoid-arthritis-affects-body.php

(I have tried to summarise a bit so I do recommend reading this page in full)

 

Skin

Nodules- (I have these- seem to be devolping more) The same pathology as in the joints, about 50% of patients develop them  Can be controlled by some DMARDs

Vasculitis- (I may have a spot of this, would need to get it confirmed) one of those diseases I mentioned above! Inflammation of blood vessels

Ulcers– (mine were caused my Methotrexate) again with the immune system directing this disease process you have cells being killed and bacteria can take advantage of wounds

Bones

Thinning- (yes, I get infusions every 18 months for this, also Vit D, and I keep up calcium in my diet) Not just at active sites but throughout the body. Goodbye stable teeth, hello gumloss. Steroids speed this up, but can control the disease systemically as well. Exercise can slow and speed this process up! It’s a difficult balance.

Eyes

Scleritis- (probably not)-weirdly scleral lenses can potentially help treat this.

Dryness- (yes, I use very viscous eyedrops) RA can lead to other autoimune disorders, Sjogren’s is one.

Mouth

Dryness- (very much so, I stay very hydrated and drink a lot of milk and sour drinks to stimulate saliva)- again could be Sjogren’s. I also have terrible oesophageal dryness and I can have terrifying moments of my food getting stuck and the spasms that follow. Mouth hygiene is super important- finding a balance between brushing enough and toomuch can be difficul

Lungs

Inflammation and scarring.(maybe?) Up to 80% of patients.

Rheumatoid Nodules. (would never know) Same as those in the skin.

Heart and Blood Vessels

Atherosclerosis- (no, but this is part of my health that is helped by diet and exercise, but again by my medication) the disease can cause inflammation of endothelial cells, this can cause more absoption of cholesterol!

Heart attack and stroke- (ditto, again, lower the risks through what I can control) One study shows 60% increase in risk after one year of disease.

Pericarditis- (I don’t think so.) Again, the disease can cause inflammation outside the joints and this includes the pericardium!

Blood

Anemia- (my biggest ongoing issue, getting enough iron but not too much) Inflammation uses iron and in RA this process also causes another system check, which is to store iron in the joints so that it can’t be used. It is the body trying to damp down the inflammation.

Blood clots- Inflammation can cause an increase in platelets.

Felty syndrome. Very rare, but real risk of developing lymphoma-

Nervous System

Pinched or compressed nerves– (yes! I am dropping and throwing things every day now) With joint swelling and deformations this can happen. It’s not a direct result of the disease on nerves through!

 

It’s not that these can happen, it’s how frequently they occur and how to treat them.

This is why I am vigilant about any health weirdness and why I get very frustrated when my disease is dismissed as a personality type (still happens, and may be why I have trust issues with switching medical specialists) and as not really that serious!

getting there

My Marie Antoinette hoops are slowly taking shape. I finally managed a pattern though, so if I have to redo this I have a guide.

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Yes, there are finally tape channels sewn in! And even more plumber’s coil/drain snake.I finally got the internal tapes to a position that works, and the tape is all hemmed.

Also that is a yoke on the dress form, I also had the hip padding under it, and it makes a big difference to how the hoops sit!

Detail photos at a later time. I just had to take some prednisone and am about to strap my wrists. I can’t close my hands nor my jaw so there is a heck of a lot of inflammation going on.

Weirdly though with that my sinus pain has gone, so I have no idea what system is in place- except that perhaps the inflammation cascade is actually functioning as intended in my face due to a lack of synovium- my antibodies are against synovial tissue so maybe that’s how my sinuses are getting the benefit while my joints just get worse. Have to check on that.

Synovial tissue is also found around some organs as well as tendons and ligaments which is hwy it’s particularly nasty and why I hate that the disease is called Rheumatoid Arthritis- it is so misleading.

Health update

In my last post I mentioned, almost offhand, I make while I can still make.

I’m having this tested somewhat as the fatigue that has dogged me for so long returns after a short few weeks.

I am sort of okay with this. I know what to expect, I know I can pace things out, to make sure I have a little something for each day, but it’s obviously an unavoidable halt and that is a challenge in many ways. Not least of all the feeling and dread of the most likely what ifs.

What ifs are difficult, but when you already have experienced so little support while trying to continue through them is very difficult. I don’t need someone to talk to, I’ll need someone to do things for me. I’ll also have to just sleep. For a few days at a time. I don’t mean nap, I mean sleep for 48 hours or so. Not watching tv, not playing games, not resting. Sleeping.

I’m a bit like my camera. The battery says there is 25% left, which should be enough to get through the day. But my camera turns off at this point, I’m still not sure why- maybe the process of writing files could be interrupted and corrupt the card? Whatever it is, it just stops. I am at that point now. I suspect if I try to stick out the day I’ll do damage but I keep thinking I have enough energy.

I did start to make horns in Sketchup. I am a whizz at some elements and not at others (mainly getting things to work in different planes) but I think I can genuinely get this and sculptris to do what I need 🙂

Not too well

Not too well

I went to the mall last night, on  a big ass straw search so I do not panic in the alginate, and too look for perfect shoes to make over for Battle Maleficent (so many terribly designed shoes- I have a high instep but a mid level arch and if my arch sits over the side of the shoe there is something off.)

Got the former but not the latter. And pretty soon after I stopped being able to walk. Well not without help. So my stress hormones are a tad out of whack dealing with pain which meant no sleep.

So this fine winter morning shall have to be spent catching upon sleep and warming up before even looking at any activity.

2 Responses to “Not too well”

  1. Zeb A. / 4 Jul 2014 9:34pm #It’s a good morning to stay warm and rest HGUS

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    • admin / 5 Jul 2014 8:41am #And I did the same today. It was so good. I may just have to let my sleep pattern shift around a bit :)

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